Semester 6 part 2

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum wr wb everyone. Now, it is 4.08 am. These previous weeks were so depressing and stressful. I was sick. But, I am so grateful, Alhamdulillah, I could survive despite all the negativities. 

I am in huge debt, of assignments, obviously :D. Finally, it is totally the same with previous semesters. However, I did not have the same motivation. It is what I needed the most. I do not know the cause. But, I think, it is all in my head. Lately, I've been thinking about a lot of negative things. I was worrying, panicking. I was scared and anxious. It's just really exhausting. I have to stop. What for? Those negative thoughts do not help me at all. I guess this is also because of the weather, my illness and my not-so-healthy lifestyle. You know, things are complex, not as simple as we thought.

Alhamdulillah, now I feel much better. I am going to install all of my assignments. Now, considering my performance, it is very fine for my lecturer to give me a "C". I am totally ikhlas for that. I deserve that. Really hope I do not need to retake this course. Please, YaALLAH, save me :')

Bismillah. Hope I can pay all of my debts. I believe Allah will help me.