Sunday, May 19

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum. Hello all. Today is a really special day. I just launched my company called Eloquent English Inc. It is still a small company. Hope, this company can grow and become like linguatrip, ruangguru or English First. Aamiin. I know that is really a big dream. But, I believe in Allah. I believe this is easy for Allah. My intention is to make many of Indonesian people can use and communicate in English eloquently. Aamiin. Start simply. Start small. Believe and be strong when facing the process. This journey is not going to be easy. I have to work really hard to work things out.

Actually, my dream is really simple. I just want to buy a house for my mother. End of the story :D. Yeah, I was not born with a silver spoon. I believe other people also experience poverty like me. I am of course not alone. Haha. And you know, they might be experiencing worse things than me and still I have to be grateful for everything I have right now. Alhamdulillah.

Then, I realize, house is really expensive. If I want to buy a house, I need to have a good job. And now I have another dream :p. I actually still do not really know what I want to be. I just follow the wind :p. I believe in Allah's plan. I believe Allah will give me a good job according to my hard work and prayer. In the bottom of my heart, I really want to be an author, a successful one yaaaa of course. I love to write. But, in this digital era, in this 21st century, of course it is a fact that there are so many people that are smarter, brighter, luckier and work more harder and smarter than me. Actually, I want to say that, being successful is not easy ahaha. I also want to be a lecturer or teacher, since I love to teach also. And I love to read if I have that job I will have plenty of time to read and write. What a dream! But, I have to study abroad to be a lecturer or writer since bachelor degree is not enough for that job. And now, I call myself a blogger. It is actually a real job. It is not an easy job. It might look easy, but believe me, it is not easy. You have to learn about SEO and so many things about programming, coding, and stuff. Today I also start calling myself as a CEO and Founder. What a really cool job :). And, I always read that if you want to be rich you have to be an enterpreneur, according to forbes haha. In Islam 9 of 10 fortune rizki doors are from business. And here I am launching my small business, small company. Hope I can be successful and can make my parents, family, friends, ummat, and country proud :). And if things don't work out, I'm still 20 years old :p. I will just be doing the best as I can. Hope this company will be beneficial for many people. Aamiin. 


Monday, May 13

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum wr wb everyone. Now, it is 4.08 am. These previous weeks were so depressing and stressful. I was sick. But, I am so grateful, Alhamdulillah, I could survive despite all the negativities. 
I am in huge debt, of assignments, obviously :D. Finally, it is totally the same with previous semesters. However, I did not have the same motivation. It is what I needed the most. I do not know the cause. But, I think, it is all in my head. Lately, I've been thinking about a lot of negative things. I was worrying, panicking. I was scared and anxious. It's just really exhausting. I have to stop. What for? Those negative thoughts do not help me at all. I guess this is also because of the weather, my illness and my not-so-healthy lifestyle. You know, things are complex, not as simple as we thought.
Alhamdulillah, now I feel much better. I am going to install all of my assignments. Now, considering my performance, it is very fine for my lecturer to give me a "C". I am totally ikhlas for that. I deserve that. Really hope I do not need to retake this course. Please, YaALLAH, save me :')
Bismillah. Hope I can pay all of my debts. I believe Allah will help me.